Posted by: k | August 16, 2009

ARGH!

I’m pissed off.

I don’t really want to talk about it, but I want the world to know that I have the shits. BIG TIME.

I’m over everyone offering their opinions and advice on my situation. It doesn’t help. It makes me put off thinking about that I need to think about.

Yes, Matt’s mother is terminally ill. Yes, she’s getting worse by the day. Yes, I moved out of home with the man I plan to marry. Yes, I’m having trouble adjusting. Yes, he’s driving me fucking insane. Yes, I’m losing my fucking job. YES, I KNOW this has all happened in a 10 week period. Yes, because of all this going on, I may have lost the twinkle in my eye, and I may be sad, and withdrawn and what not.

But no, telling me over and over again how you want things to be different for me and I have to do what’s best is NOT HELPING!

I need time to figure out what I’m doing. Without extra voices in my head. I have enough of those already.

And if I make a decision you don’t like? Well shut up and deal with it. It’s MY life, after all.

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Responses

  1. It’s unfortunate, but most people, when faced with someone else’s difficult and emotional situation, simply don’t know the right things to say. I’m sure you’ve heard a lot of the same old phrases that people think will comfort you and I know it’s hard to stomach it sometimes, but realy they’re just trying to be helpful and supportive. I’m sorry you’re having a hard time and if you want to talk, you know where to find me.

  2. Thinking of you mate. x


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