Feed Me!!!

Due to a certain idiot at work looking over my shoulder constantly (no, he’s not even in a position of authority) I’ve resorted to secretly typing blog entries in Word, and then quickly logging on and posting them when nobody’s looking. I can’t believe it has come to this. Insanity!

Anyway, there’s a scrapbooking night on tomorrow, which I was looking forward to going to… but I’m not going. One, because I have to be in the mood to scrapbook. I’m not one that can go “right, this page needs going, I’ll just put down the toilet brush and away we go.” Nope. I have to be in the mood to do it, otherwise I just sit there and stare at the photos, and the paper, and the embellishments, and get frustrated because I can’t come up with a good layout for them. Two, well, I’m a bit short of cash this week. Which is understandable, because I just paid $250 (sniff) off my credit card, and I pay my share of the rent this week, and I’m trying to save for heaps of stuff… so, hobby has to wait.

I finally had a decent nights sleep last night. I still woke up a couple of times, but that’s because Matt was being a bed hog and had me squished up against the wall. And since I was facing the wall, I didn’t have enough room to roll over and give him a shove. Hmmph. And he calls me a blanket hog. I’d rather be a blanket hog than a mattress hog! Meanie…

Ergh… work is so boring today. Just lots of filing, and faxing, and invoicing. Blech.

I am so damn hungry today! I was tempted to get stuck into my lunch about 10am, but I resisted… hopefully I get my lunch before 1pm though, because I am really hungry. I’m not just saying it either… I’m actually ravenous. Even though I ate my breakfast, and my snack. Ah well.

I’m contemplating making “The List” into a separate page instead of a post, that way I can access it easier (and so can you!) and I can keep track of it. Which I’ll do after I enter this post, more than likely.

I wanna write more, but this hunger is consuming me. Make it stop! Make it stoooooop!

Ways to kiss (I scored 37!)

I saw this on a very old blog of mine… and thought it needed updating!

 01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] the opposite sex.
07. [] of the same sex.
08. [ ] a little bit younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [x] with brown hair.
12. [] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair
14. [ ] with a tounge ring.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who I truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high.
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [ ] who I had just met.
25. [x] who I really didn’t want to kiss.
26. [ ] we were just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall/fence
31. [x] in a hotel
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert.
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain/ snow.
37. [ ] with an std
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room.
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [ ] under water.
45. [ ] friends boyfriend (or ex)
46. [ ] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once.
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
51. [x] when you were laughing
52. [x] in a hot tub
53. [x] upside down

Things I Am Doing Instead Of Working

• Looking at my title - With Everything Starting In A Capital Letter - and thinking about how stupid it looks.
• Blogging (obviously)
• Reading other blogs
• Getting caught blogging & reading other blogs
• Yawning
• Contemplating sleep
• Thinking about how heavy my limbs are currently feeling
• Listening to the radio a little too intently
• Attempting to start conversations with people on MSN Messenger
• Downloading podcasts for my running program
• Wondering if I’m ever going to start the running program
• Getting up and walking around the office sporadically
• Stretching (and making sure nobody sees my unshaven armpits)
• Adding ’shave armpits’ to tonight’s to-do list
• Wondering what else is on the to-do list for tonight
• Knowing that this list could go on FOR ETERNITY if I don’t stop now

Yeah, that’s about it. I just don’t want to work… I’ve only got an hour left.

New word time!

Okay. I learnt a new word today. My boss said it as he was dictating to me, and I was like “uhh… how do you spell that?” because I’d never heard it spoken before, much less seen it written.

The word I speak of? “Caveat”. Pronounced “Kah-vee-at”.

According to dictionary.com, a caveat is a legal notice to a court or public officer to suspend a certain proceeding until the notifier is given a hearing: a caveat filed against the probate of a will.

Interesting.

“The List” - again

I’ve thought of something else to add to the list.

• Rejoin my gym for 12 months. I only joined for 6 months in May, because I wanted to see how I went. That, and the money factor. Well, I’m becoming a gym junkie… and when my membership runs out in in November.. I’m going to be stuffed. I have 11 weeks until my membership expired (shit, that’s a lot closer than I thought) and I’m going to need to save the cash for it.

So many men… so little time (don’t tell Matt!)

Ok, I’m falling in love all over again (Not with Matt, so don’t tell him!).

No, although I love my Matt to bits and pieces, this is music I am talking about.

And folks, I’ve fallen for Ben Lee again.

Raise your hand if you remember 2005’s ‘Catch My Disease’. Oohh yes, that song was gold. I’m sure it annoyed the shit out of people after awhile, but not me. I loved it.
“So pleeeeease, baby pleaaaaasssee, come ooooooon, catch my diseaaasee”
Catch it I did. Very muchly. Then he released ‘Into the Dark’. Yeah, that was ok, but not a patch on ‘Catch my Disease’. And then there was ‘We’re all in this together’ which the Salvation Army now fittingly uses in their ads.

Anyway, in 2006, Ben & I parted ways, and I fell for James Blunt. Hehe.. I love James Blunt. I got his limited edition double cd with the concert dvd, and man… blow a girl away, James! What a voice. My favourite James Blunt song is “High”, by the way. Number 1 on the album, as it should be.
“Beautiful dawn… lights up the shore again. There is nothing else in the world… I’d rather wake up and see… with you”

Le sigh.

But… Ben is back. He’s released another ripper. I heard it for the first time time in the gym, and I thought “hey… I know that voice.” And sure enough, it was Ben. Singing “Love me like the world is ending”.

And how could I say no to that?

Just a couple of years ago, I was into all that emo shit. I denied it was emo, but it was. You know, how they pretend to sing, but they’re really just bitching about how horrible their lives are. Yuck.

Now, I’m quite happy listening to all the sappy stuff. The stuff where people sing about happy things, to a happy melody, and all you have to do is close your eyes and imagine drifting along somewhere in paradise. Yeah, that’s me. I like the sappy stuff now.

Guess that happens when a girl falls in love, huh?

I’m thinking about making a couple of mixed cds and bringing them into work. That’d be selfish though, because the radio is next to my desk… and everyone hears it. Hmm.. should they bring their own music, perhaps? They had a sook last time I brought stuff in.

Oh, the worries of life.

On another note, my boss just left. THREE WEEKS OF FREEDOM! PARTY!!!
Thank God, because seriously, if I had to put up with salmon breath for another minute, I would have lost my lunch all over my keyboard.

A day and a quarter to go…

And then my boss is gone! GONE! For 3 whole glorious weeks!

I have never been so happy for someone else to take a holiday! Truth is, he’s driving me batty. He’s driving everyone batty. I think we’re going to have a party!

Anyhoo. I have stuff to do, which I’ve been successfully avoiding, and now that I’ve decided to actually do something, the boss comes over and makes me drop everything to organise stuff for his meeting tonight. Yup.

Just imagine the Simpsons’ episode where Bart gets his clown bed, and he spends all night curled up in a ball, rocking, saying “can’t sleep… clown’ll eat me… can’t sleep… clown’ll eat me…”
Now, subsitute the bed for a desk, Bart for me, and “can’t sleep… clown’ll eat me”.. for “day and a quarter.. day and a quarter.. day and a quarter..” and you’ve got an accurate picture of yours truly at the moment.

He is driving me INSANE! And hey, I know I dance on the line on occasion, but he’s pushing me to the edge!

I think I’m going to spend the rest of the afternoon quoting Shrek lines.

“Ogres, are, like onions.” - Shrek
“Oh, cuz they stink?” - Donkey
“Yes. NO!”
“Because they make you cry?”
“NO! Onions have layers. Ogres have layers. Get it? WE BOTH HAVE LAYERS!”
“Ohhhhhh, you both have laayyyyers…”

Yes I typed all that off the top of my head. I can imagine the scene and the voices as well. Told you I was being driven to the edge…

“I’m a donkey on the edge!!!”

“The List”

So, my dear friend Aly (with a lot of help) has composed a list of things she must do before heading to the UK at the end of the year.

Now, I’m not going anywhere, but I love the idea of the list. Totally awesome. I wanna make a list of things that I want to get done by the end of the year. Good incentive to get moving. And then maybe a list of things that I want to get done… eventually.

So the things I can think of that I want to get done by the end of the year are:

• Save at least another $1000 to go into our joint account. Fairly easy, since we’re putting in $200 a month, minus stupid bank fees.
• Get to mini weight-loss goal #1, which is 3.7kg away.
• Get to mini weight-loss goal #2, which is 5kg away after mini goal #1.
• Halve my credit card debt. I say halve because my card’s just about maxed out, and it’s annoying me.
• Lock away my credit card while I pay it off. Yeah. I haven’t used my credit card to buy something just for the sake of buying it, but all the car maintenance, insurance, and gym membership has accumulated a not-so-nice number.
• Exercise a minimum of 4 days each week. Weeks left in year = 23. That means 92 days of exercising. Easily attainable.
• Log minutes of exercise to shock people, and add to “Useless Facts” database.
• Finish off all outstanding college assessments, and aim to finish my Cert IV as soon as they’ll let me. This could trickle over into January next year, but it’s all good.
• Enquire about dancing lessons. I have wanted to do this for a long time, but have been too chicken. Matt said something about taking lessons too, so I can sucker him in! I think he just wants lessons so we don’t look like blundering fools at our own wedding, but hey, any excuse will do!
• Cook a decent meal every Saturday night. This is so Matt & I don’t starve when we move out. He can cook, but I’d feel horrible making him do it every night. I need to learn!
• Learn how to cook a good roast. Again, so we don’t starve. We won’t be able to live off quiche, lasagne, spaghetti and tuna bake forever, will we? My arse would expand to the point of exploding, and I’m trying to shrink it, thank you very much.

Hey, I didn’t do that bad on my own, did I? Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!

Yay! It’s Friday! Woo!

Unfortunately, today’s going to be haphazard, whacked out, clumsy sort of day. Third sentence and I’ve already had to use the spellchecker…

Le sigh.

So why is today going to haphazard, whacked out and clumsy? I slept in… 45 minutes late. Yep, 45 minutes. And I’m SO tired.

Anyway, I want to blog about my realisation last night. I ran into an old friend, and she told me that she’s pregnant… let me elaborate.

Ok. I’m turning 20 in December, and most of my school buddies were born in the same year as me, so if they’re not 20 yet, they will be shortly.

Most of the girls I knew in highschool are now either pregnant, have kids already, or are married. Excuse me?!

What happened to finishing school and travelling around the world? I can tell you right now off the top of my head that 4 girls in my year level (as far as I know) are already married. Two of those have kids. I can think of another 2 or 3 the year level above me who are married. With kids. These are 20 and 21 year olds we’re talking about here. Isn’t that insane? I can also tell you that I know of at least 7 girls who’ve had babies (or are currently pregnant), and 1 fell pregnant and had an abortion.

Ok, yes, I know, I’m engaged. But I got engaged on the proviso that I wouldn’t be running down the aisle straightaway, popping babies out as I went. Actually, if we stick with the wedding date that we picked, I’ll be nearly 22 when I get married. As far as I’m concerned, that’s still really young to be getting married.

I just… I’ve known that girls have been falling pregnant all over the place, but it wasn’t until I saw that old friend last night that I actually sat down and thought about it.

I spoke to the girls at work about it. Alethea (who’s 4 years older than me) said that only two people from her year level are married, her best friend being one of them. Elysha (who’s 7 years older than me) said all her school friends are only just now starting to have kids.

It’s just weird. I think it’s weird.

And last night I got asked about my wedding date with a glance at my midsection.

I am NOT pregnant, and I won’t be pregnant for quite awhile. Years, in fact. I’m not ready for that! I know I’m not, and I’m taking the necessary measures to make sure I don’t fall pregnant.

What amazes me, is that all these girls weren’t trying to fall pregnant. All of them were accidental pregnancies.

GAH! This annoys me. There are so many different types of birth control out there, that there is no excuse to get preggers and go “it was an accident”. Condoms, the pill, depo-provera, implanon, IUDs, the list goes on and on. I just don’t get it. If you don’t want to fall pregnant, there’s heaps of stuff out there to make sure you don’t.

Take me for example. I like “practising” as much as the next person, but I’ve never done it unprotected. And I never could unless I was trying for a baby, because I’d freak out too much. Hell, I was freaking out when I was on the Pill.

Eh, I’m ranting too much. I just think that if you don’t want to get pregnant, you’ve got options. It’s not like it’s the 1960’s and only married women can get the Pill. I was on the pill at 15 (and no, it wasn’t because I was doing the deed).

At least when they fall pregnant they take responsibility for it and raise the baby. I’ll give them that.

My FAVOURITE Song!

I’m sorry folks, but it’s in my head, and I can’t get it out. The only way to get it out of my head is to listen to it, and I won’t be home for about another hour or so. By the way, before you tell me to listen to it in my car… I don’t have a cd player in my car, ok? My car has the factory tape deck that was put in the car when they made it in 1991. Shut up, and I don’t see the point of putting a cd player in it when I’ll be replacing the car soon…

Man, I got off topic. Here are the lyrics to my song of the moment: Cascada - Everytime We Touch. Download both the normal techno version and the slow version. They’re both very good. DO IT!

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 I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams (my dreams).
Forgive me my weakness,
But I don’t know why,
Without you it’s hard to survive.

‘Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly.
Can’t you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last.
‘Need you by my side.
‘Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can’t you hear my heart beat so?
I can’t let you go.
‘Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky,
They wipe away tears that I cry (I cry).
The good and the bad times,
We’ve been through them all,
You make me rise when I fall.

‘Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly.
Can’t you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last.
‘Need you by my side.
‘Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can’t you hear my heart beat so?
I can’t let you go.
‘Want you in my life.

‘Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly.
Can’t you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last.
‘Need you by my side.