Eating Plan

Alethea’s noticed I’ve been strugging on my *ahem* weight loss journey, and after she looked at my food diary, she offered to write up an eating plan for me to help me with the lack of results. She just got me to tell her what I will and won’t eat (eg, I hate all kinds of fruit *waits for all the shock to die down* and I won’t eat it, and YES I’ve tried to eat fruit, but I love beetroot and eggs and stuff) and came up with something that I’m likely to stick to.

I’m kinda shocked, honestly, because it’s only in the past few weeks that I feel like a proper friendship is beginning with me and the other girls in the office, and now we’re exercising together one day a week, and now Alethea’s taking more of an interest in what I’m eating etc. I told her she didn’t have to, and she said that she wanted to help, and also that her sister is 19, the same age as me, and she’s fit and healthy. So I guess she decided to help out a bit before things get too bad for me…

On one hand I feel horrible for needing help, but also I’m looking forward to trying something a little different, and hoping for some results.

Yet more quizzes!

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Mind is 65% Cluttered

Your mind is quite cluttered. And like most clutter, it's a bunch of crap you don't need. Try writing down your worst problems and fears. And then put them out of your mind for a while.

How Cluttered is Your Mind?

Negative thinking…

Gah. I want to quit. It’s easier to be fat.

But if I stay this way, then my self-esteem and everything else stays at a nice, fat 0. Like me, I guess.

Now’s the time where I need to decide if I’m really committed to this.

If I don’t get some results soon, I think I will give up, consciously or not.

Balloons!!!

I am so incredibly tired. Absolutely exhausted. I keep waking up in the middle of the night for some reason. Hopefully soon I’ll just crash and I’ll sleep the whole night through.

Nothing much is going on. The car yard across the road has got a sale on today or something, because they’ve got a long string of helium balloons up in the air so all the cars on the freeway can see them. I just counted them, there’s 24. There’s an extra large one on each end, and then normal ones in the middle.

And, as usual, every time I’m desperate to yawn, the phone rings. Gah.

Road Ragin’!

Dear Frigwit,

Thank you ever so kindly for walking out in front of my car this morning. Had I been going any faster, or braked any later, you would have been roadkill. And yes, I yelled idiot at the top of my lungs because you scared the shit out of me. What fucking idiot walks out in front of a car that they SAW coming towards them? FOOL!

Maybe I should have hit you, would have relieved some stress from the shit day I'm having. Fucking idiot. Hope someone DOES hit you. Then you’ll learn.

I should have planted my foot down. Fucktard.

Your mother obviously taught you to look both ways before crossing the road, but she didn’t teach you to FUCKING STAND AT THE SIDE OF THE ROAD when a car is approaching.

Idiot.

Sincerely,
The girl that should have skittled your arse.

Project Me

1. I admit I love food and am addicted to it.

2. My weight bothers me, and I know it’s not healthy.

3. I am overweight for the most part because I overeat and don’t exercise enough.

4. I have blamed many people and many things for my fat, but I must admit I am to blame. I hold the fork.

5. I forgive those who have made fun of me, judged me, or put me down because of my weight.

6. I forgive myself and forget about all the times I tried before.

7. Today I will make time for myself. I will eat healthy, and I will exercise.

8. I will not ignore, hide from, or avoid food. I will face food and not lean on it.

9. I realise food has no power and will never solve any of my problems – past, present or future.

10. I will be patient with myself and will not become compulsive and obsessed with losing weight and exercising.

11. If I didn’t do great yesterday, I will try harder today.

12. I will take a daily inventory and be truthful with myself.

13. I know now there are no easy ways to do this. I know the only way to achieve my goal is through exercise, eating healthy, and staying motivated.

14. I will use my sense of humour today, for it heals loneliness, depression, insecurity, and boredom.

15. This time I am doing this for me.

16. I am a terrific person and I like myself right now, no matter what I weigh.

17. The next time I have a craving for something fattening or am tempted not to exercise, I will think about the new me, and I will be strong.

18. I will take a look in the mirror and say, “I am going to have a great day.”

19. I have a very positive outlook about “My Life.”

20. I am doing it! I am going all the way!

21. I am worth it!!!

Frustrated!

Damnit, the stupid phone has been ringing off the hook ALL MORNING!
I guess I’m paying now for taking it a little easy yesterday, I’ve got some files to make up, filing to do, folders to make up *phone rings* invoices to enter, other invoices to sort, things to photocopy, etc etc etc. This week has gone so quick for some reason, it’s already Thursday! I’m not complaining about the day, I just wish I had a little less to do.

The new lady starts on Monday, her name’s Noreen. I hope she’s nice. I wonder how her starting is going to affect the office dynamic, because at the moment there’s only one person over 30 in the office, and this lady is 54 (saw it on her resume). Hopefully I’ll get along with her, it’d be nice, because then I won’t feel like such an outcast because of the other two girls and their closeness.

I dreamt that Matt and I got married last night, and I was skinny, but wearing a shoddy dress, and the bridesmaids were in crap dresses too, and for some reason his mum got really shitty because apparently she wasn’t at the wedding. I woke up happy at the thought of marrying him and having everyone’s acceptance, but hey, nobody approves of him… I remember this time last year, how everyone was saying that it was so obvious how happy I was with him, and they liked him. Funny what 12 months can do. Now everyone hates him and they’re telling me I’m making a big mistake.

*phone rings*

I wonder what I’m going to get up to this weekend, I haven’t got anything planned. Hmm…

12756

On Saturday, Matt and I had a look round the new centre that's opened up not too far from home. It's like a new home centre, which was really good, there's a few bedding places, and a few furniture places, and an electronics store.
When we were in the electronics store Matt found this display and sat down, it was a chair with one of those massage pads on it, and he called me over to sit down, and then he hit this button and the pad underneath my butt started vibrating… and he said “well that's one thing taken care of…”
He got a good slap for it!

Anyway, the massage was really nice, and now I'm thinking I really want one for work, because my back seems to be at it's worst when I'm stuck in this chair… too bad I can't afford the $300…

Kinda old song now - but I love it!

I, I’m driving black on black
Just got my license back
I got this feeling in my veins this train is coming off the track
I’ll ask polite if the devil needs a ride
Because the angel on my right ain’t hanging out with me tonight
I’m driving past your house while you were sneaking out
I got the car door opened up so you can jump in on the run
Your mom don’t know that you were missing
She’d be pissed if she could see the parts of you that I’ve been kissing
Screamin’

No, we’re never gonna quit
Ain’t nothing wrong with it
Just acting like we’re animals
No, no matter where we go
‘Cause everybody knows
We’re just a couple of animals

So come on baby, get in
Get in, just get in
Check out the trouble we’re in

You’re beside me on the seat
Got your hand between my knees
And you control how fast we go by just how hard you wanna squeeze
It’s hard to steer when you’re breathing in my ear
But I got both hands on the wheel while you got both hands on my gears
By now, no doubt that we were heading south
I guess nobody ever taught her not to speak with a full mouth
‘Cause this was it, like flicking on a switch
It felt so good I almost drove into the ditch
I’m screamin’

No, we’re never gonna quit
Ain’t nothing wrong with it
Just acting like we’re animals
No, no matter where we go
‘Cause everybody knows
We’re just a couple of animals

So come on baby, get in
Get in, just get in
Look at the trouble we’re in

We were parked out by the tracks
We’re sitting in the back
And we just started getting busy
When she whispered “what was that?”
The wind, I think ‘cause no one else knows where we are
And that was when she started screamin’
“That’s my dad outside the car!”
Oh please, the keys, they’re not in the ignition
Must have wound up on the floor while
we were switching our positions
I guess they knew that she was missing
As I tried to tell her dad it was her mouth that I was kissing
Screamin’

No, we’re never gonna quit
Ain’t nothing wrong with it
Just acting like we’re animals
No, no matter where we go
‘Cause everybody knows
We’re just a couple animals

So come on baby, get in
We’re just a couple of animals
Get in, just get in
Ain’t nothing wrong with it
Check out the trouble we’re in
Get in, just get in

Floyd

I joined an Australian Siamese Fighting Fish forum a few months back, because I'd just gotten a fighter (his name is Floyd) and I wanted to know more about him.

I eventually got a decent digital camera and took a photo of him, and posted it on the forum, and someone said that Floyd is a 'piebald'. Now, I knew that Floyd was a marble, which basically means that parts of the fish can change colour for a period of time, but it's not permanent in one specific area and it tends to move. But I had no idea what a 'piebald' was.

So, what do you do when you need to know something? You Google it, of course! This is what I got:

“A piebald is an animal, especially a horse, that has a spotting pattern of large white and black patches.”

Ahhhh.. It all makes sense now. I didn't realise that fish could do that, but then again my little guy is pretty special!

And here he is!!